journey of the unknown Fozzbah....

New Job....

2008-09-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

Whew!! After 4 months of goofing and rotting, i have managed to find a job...
Lucky break for me since was in dire need to start new job soon to pay off the usual monthly bills....

Anyway, im still in the telesales but this time with an online classified portal...
The pay is so-so only but what is worse is trying to close as many sales as possible in a month...

I thought its going to be a breeze hitting the targert set but so far, i have not done very well!! I need to earn the commission in order to make my life a bit more comfortable...

Will try harder to close more sales... I definitely cannot survive with the small amount of basic pay that the company provide...

Sigh... must talk more and do hard selling from now on!!

Not working...

2008-07-09T07:21:00.000-07:00

The 1st half of the year had comeby and gone.. Time really flies...

i am so happy and proud to say that, finally i have resigned from the telco...
Freedom!! YAY!!!

So basically, ive been unemployed for 4 months come 10th July... And now i need to start actively looking for a new career....

I think i have spent a lovely and carefree 4 months idling, rotting, wilting my life away... But it was a good decison made, otherwise, i will sign my life/blood and everything else to that 1 and only company...

Anyhoo, im hoping to start something new soon... Either doing hotel industry or the autmotive industry...
Will see what happens in the next couple of weeks...
Wish me luck!!

Happy New Year!!

2008-01-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

so a year has already passed and i feel that nothing much has been achieved... sigh...
but shall not dwell too much on it... will think positive and look forward the surprises and what -not awaits for the new year....

will promise myself to blog as much as possible, be it a short one or long one...

wishing everyone Happy New Year!!
hope the year will bring joy,health and happiness.....

sick...sick of work....

2007-07-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

gosh.. ive been really bored with work and feel like resign ASAP!!!
usually, in april every year, i have this massive urge just to throw the resignation letter in the bosses face and walk out...

perhaps i shld take a nice 2 weeks vacay and just enjoy myself without ever to think of crap work...

hmmmm....

Lazy to blog....

2007-04-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

Lazy to blog.....

so there!!!

No wireless connection

2007-04-06T14:34:00.000-07:00

i was blogging the other day abt how i went to remove my wart on my foot and suddenly the connection was down... for like 2 days i was trying my hardest to go to the Net.. thank god now im able to surf again.. Phew!!

anyway on tuesday, i went to the skin centre to have my wart on my right foot removed... finally after like 10 years i got it over and done with.. last year i went to freeze off the wart but was still firmly attached and i really got fed up... so was complaining to the doctor that something should be done once and for all.. so set up for the laser surgery..

so was on medical leave for 4 days and on monday have to report back to work... and seriously, i m gettin bored staying at home.. even tho it still slightly hurt when i walked, i did go out of the house.. not much walking or dancing... was at friend's house watching DVD and getting drunk.. good way to spend the nites and days when on medical leave... hehehe...

hopefully by monday i wont be limping when i go to work... telling myself that i shld just rest and not walk so much till the weekend is over... sigh...

strange leh....

2007-04-03T05:16:00.000-07:00

Mrs Z was telling me that a certain someone that WAS important to my life before, was ignoring for a very long period of time.. What is the problem?? U moved on, I moved on, so just let it be lah....

I do not want to be friends and i dont really care what you are up to even tho friends of mine been bugging me to read the blog...
My heart is so broken abt the whole thing and it is very hard for me not to get very upset and then followed by extreme anger when i think of the past...

So to that person, you may contact my friends but i am not willing to talk email or sms...
Not at this moment and maybe never at all...

But i m not that bitter or a mean bitch, i do wish that person a very happy life...
Just forget abt what we had...
Thats all...

Living Room

2007-04-03T04:58:00.000-07:00

I had a massive clubbing session 2 weeks in a row!!! A blast of a time!!!
What happen was that after my in camp training, Mr Peace and myself decided to go all out for a serious sloshing session and also to dance the nite away, like to celebrate the end of the in camp training...

So on friday nite, almost dead tired and wanted to sleep, went home eat, shower and got ready to go out... Before heading towards the club, both of us had a bottle of something2 (E33) and once done we went to Taboo... By the time we reach there, the place was empty.. Only like 10 ppl were milling inside, but as the nite grew and the drinks being gulped down, the place started to get crowded....

So after dancing and drinking, we were joined by a very good friend of mine and after the club close, they decided that its too early to leave for home.. I was good and ready to call it a nite, but things changed and so we jumped in a cab and headed for Living Room..

Living Room is a club in Marriot Hotel and the party doesnt started untill like 3am in the morning and when we came, MY GOD! it was packed full of ppl and everyone was having a good time dancing and drinking.. the music was really good and even tho i was almost dead drunk, i was still grooving (maybe more like swaying) to the pounding dance music, but i dont care as i was in heaven.. Shiok lah...
great music and great friends at a great club....

the only bummer that i find about the place is that there are WAY to many streetwalkers at the dance club, and strangely, most of the ppl knew it too... I see many of the expatriates trying to get to know the girls and the girls busy flirting around.... it somewhat made a very interesting conversation with my friends... hahaha....

i just wish i have more energy to stay longer cos by 6am, my eyes started to sting, legs getting wobbly and body aching painfully... But i promise myself and the 2 of my friends that we will try to go and have a great time over at Living Room and will stay longer, till maybe 7-8am...

oh and to Mrs Z, i know i informed you that i wanted to go to all the fashion shows but i was just dead tired from the clubbing...
Jangan marah ah...

in camp training

2007-04-03T04:49:00.000-07:00

2 weeks ago i did my in camp training.. this year and the next will be low key, so that means we wont have field camp.. so YAY!! it will be 5 days only.. so thats not a bitch when returning for the bleeding training...

what did i do during the the 5 days in the camp?? I learned alot and i actually appreciate what the army made me learned to do.. i learned to lookafter the camp but most importantly, i know what to do in case the country ever go on war, or worse, when there are terrorist trying to unstablise the small nation of mine...
Phewarr!! Patriotic right!!

So am really looking forward for next year in camp training, not becos of the training itself but actually the bonding that i made with my camp mates.. sure i get teased quite often but at the end of the day, we had great time laughing and singing esp when lights are of...

To Mr Peace and Iss, i really truly treasure yr friendship and lets hope that we can go out soon for a karaoke session...

Bangkok.. Bangkok.. Bangkok..

2007-03-14T19:55:00.000-07:00

Bangkok with Mr Peace was fantastic!! There was no bitter arguments just good solid fun we had during the weekend..

We took the early flight and by the time we reach the city of Angels (BKK ah and not Los Angeles), the flight was ok and i think both of us did fall asleep...
Pitied Mr Peace cos he just came back from a long flight and was suffering from jetlag... Told me that he slept like only 45mins the whole nite..

Upon reaching the service apartment, Royal President, our rooms, tragically, were not ready and after waiting for like half an hour, we managed to checked into the room... Was abit disappointed cos it was not like how i imagined to be.. The last apartment i had with Ex-Sayang was cleaner,newer and nicer... But hey at least its bigger and we have a separate living room and bedroom... Cant complained about that!!!

Anyway, since Mr Peace just cameback from a long flight from LA and was feeling extremely jetlagged, told him to just take a nap and then once rested, we can go and walk around... The nap was like 3 hours and I had fallen asleep as well... hehehe.. So woke up, went to look for food and after that we went for our massage...

The massage was good. I felt refreshed... And after that went back to apartment, relax, and got ready to party!!
Bangkok is always happening... No matter what or how, the atmosphere at the clubs are electric!!! Plus so many cute thai ppl around... smiling and laughing...

Well, me and Mr Peace will plan to go for holidays together... Was thinking of going to Phuket and maybe Bali...
Hmmmm...
And i must say thanks to Mr Peace for giving me the motivation to lose weight and stay healthy....
Very happy to be your friend...

Tagged... 5 weird things about me...

2007-03-06T18:18:00.000-08:00

was tagged by thesexysecretary and now have to think really really hard how weird i am...
i would like to think that im actually pretty normal but i guess there must be something i can find abt myself...

1st... Eating WAY TOO FAST
well yes i can eat really2 fast and this only happens if i am at home... maybe im just too tired or maybe because am watching the telly so will try to finish the meal during the commercial break..
almost all the time i finish wolfing down 2 plates of rice in less than 2mins... Trying really hard to slow down and chew more but so far its not happening... God! Do i have an eating disorder??? heheheh...

2nd.. Toilet Breaks
I guess all the wolfing down the food has actually given me some bowel problems... I do need to go the toilet almost more frequent than anyone else i know... There are days when i can go and berak (shit) twice/thrice or even more!!! Plus, i personally feel something is missing or wrong if i dont go once in the morning and once at nite... hehehe..
And most of my friends are aware that i have this weird thing going on!!

3rd... Gas Problem
Ah.. i see a connection now.. I have this strange habit of burping and farting at the most inapproriate times... the burping starts normally after food but also when i had way to many beers too.. But what makes it weird is that, i feel that my burp is louder longer than anyone else... And my fart, good god!, most friends have been shocked to hear how loud it can be....

theres this incident that happened when i was in KL, coupla years ago, me and sexysecretary and sexy mama were sharing a room and in the morning, i let out such a forceful and loud fart that i myself was shocked!!! you can feel the whole bed vibrating!!! Naturally all 3 of us had a good laugh!!

4th.. Eating Tears
So far ive not met anyone else that has this... Usually when im too hungry and chew excessively, automatically my right eye will start to tear... Like the above weird problem that I have, this one seems to affect only me.. None of the family have the same problem... My friends and acquantainces have asked me if the food im eating is extremely spicy that im crying... Sigh.. if only they know lah....

5th... Touchy Feely.. NOT!!
Ok ive got this weird habit of getting annoyed if someone decides to go touchy2 and feely2 with me... U know the trying to be manja-ed... See, the thing is, im not really know to be affectionate with anyone or even my friends.. im very discreet abt my life and if someone starts to hold and hug in public, i think he or she will shoved away!!
pls dont ask me why!!

There! Cant think of anything else already...

ps: will update abt my BKK trip at another time..

Off to Bangkok....

2007-03-01T00:44:00.000-08:00

Im going for a short holiday tomoro.. Am so looking forward to it and now getting all excited..
This is the first time that me and Mr Peace is going to Bangkok together.. Hope nothing crappy happens, if not my friendship with Mr Peace will tragically end.... SIGH...

Anyway, im glad to be able to go with him.. Ive know Mr Peace since secondary school through a schoolmate.. Mr Peace was from another school and the first time I met him was somewhere in Orchard... How time flies!!
We have lost contact for some time but once in awhile i do received news of him and now since we are doing our reservist together, we take time to meet up for coffee and dinner... What we do when we meet?? Well it is to bitch abt other camp mates... Horrible but it keep us going... At least both of us know who we can hang out with or not... hehehe...

So will fly off tomoro morning at 7.15am (how can i possibly wake up?) and come back on sunday and im planning to have a wild nite out in Bangkok!!!

I'm an Uncle, again!!

2007-02-22T00:46:00.000-08:00

Congrats to my sister!!
She safely delivered a healthy boy last evening... Tonite will visit her in the hospital and see how cute he is...

So now I have 2 nephews and a niece and my youngest sister is in Primary 1... If I have gotten married, I guess i too will have my own set!! But thats a big IF!!

Wondering will I ever be a good parent.. But I guess i will never know lah.. Sigh...
Unless i adopt...

And i just realised that im getting older!! In mid-30s now!! How like that??
Where did the time go???

SIGH!!!!

Party party party!!!

2007-02-22T00:09:00.000-08:00

Phew... at last the long holidays are over..sigh... I almost didnt have the chance to party during the long weekend...
On Friday nite, I had to sent something to my customer somewhere in woodlands... 2 days before that, my throat was kinda scratchy and was feeling somewhat feverish.. but nevertheless, i went for my RT on wednesday and thot nothing much will happen.. But on thursday, my voice started getting hoarse and i was easily tired... def a start of something i thought to myself..
Then on friday afternoon, after lunch with Mrs Z, it gotten worse... So out of breath and then when i left office, it was pouring... And by the time i reached home, was cold and asked my mom if i can use her inhaler... Sigh..
Thought to myself that this is definitely not a good sign... Fallen sick with mild asthma with nose block really bad... And then receiving sms from my other friends that they are going out to PARTY!!! Unfair!!

So anyway, Saturday morning, woke up early cos I had a dental appointment.. Dentist informed me that so far no rotten teeth and gums.. Was quite relieved to hear that and after that went to see the doctor... Was told that if my phlegm and tiredness still persist, must go for x-ray... Then I thought to myself, maybe i have been smoking WWAAYYY too much and decided to lay off the ciggies and to finish whatever i have in hand..
After taking the medicine given, I fell asleep but was not a long 2pm to 6pm nap that I usually have... This time round cannot take long naps becos of the the mobilization that im having.. And guess what, after the weekend is over, nothing!! No mobilization!! SIGH!!!!

Anyway, long story short, I went out 3 nites in a row going clubbing and getting drunk... Had a blast with Mr Peace on Saturday at a gay club... It was a first for Mr Peace... And by 3am, went off his tshirt.. hehehe.. Fantastic!!

Saturday, went with sexy mama and adyboy, first to sexy mama's friend house, and then went out MoS.. Made plans with Mr Peace to meet him there as well.. So at the end of the morning, me and sexy mama was roaring drunk and talking nonsense... Still it was a good time!!

Monday, wanted to chill at home and relax but by 6pm was text-ing my friends if they are going out or not.. And after much discussion, decided to go St James and, OMYGOD!! the queue snaked all the way to the back of the building and it was not moving at all...
Rather than wait and queue, i asked if we shld go somewhere else.. In the end, it was me,sexy mama, adyboy and Ram2 took the cab and head off.. All of us were expecting the other friends to follow, but alas, none showed up...
But i did have fun although was extremely tired...

So this weekend will have a quiet time at home and will do some reading.. Must switch off my hanphone too!!

Oh Look its a puddle!!

2007-01-21T22:03:00.000-08:00

I have been dying to blog abt this incident but have been really busy at work...
anyway, i have been going to the camp on wednesdays and saturdays for RT ( i think its remedial training)... its where national service men who failed their IPPT ( individual physical proficiency test, guessing here),have to report to camp and encouraged to exercise and try to pass the test....
for those who are not familiar, the stations consists of pull ups, sit ups, 4x10m shuttle run, standing broad jump and lastly 2.4km run... fyi, i have never passed any the 2.4km run and also cant do more than 3 pull ups.. its so very tragic!! and everytime i am at the pull up bar, i just froze, got anxiety attack, freaked out and cant do it.. sigh.. so frustrating...

anyhoo... so we had to run around the camp the other day and since it was raining heavily, there were plenty of puddles ard the camp area... and whenever theres a one in our way, everyone would stop and skirt around the puddle.. at first i joined the herd to avoid the puddle but after 10mins later i realised how silly i am...
i mean there are reports abt flooding in Sg and JB, where houses were destroyed and lives lost, but here am i running the within the camp and was scared of some little puddle...
i was quite disgusted and ashamed with myself but more so to those guys who actually slowed down, walked on the grass just to avoid an itsy bitsy puddle... was wondering if they read the papers abt the flooding?? and i wonder why i did such thing to...
so shameful and embarrassing...
sigh..

Of Durian Puffs.... and Shifting Office...

2007-01-12T20:04:00.000-08:00

Was sppsed to help to clear the stuffs at the office last evening but was extremely busy with work... I just realised that I have many2 customers to callback and time wasnt on my side... so had to rush and rush things in order to meet the deadline... Was really spent and tired and what with sleeping late the nite before...
sigh..

Anyhoo,sleeping late was becos I went out with sexysecretary/MsZ and CJ... and together with MatJon too... This MatJon is sexysect boyfriend, so we hung out with drinks and to catch up since sexysect has been posted overseas and was here for a holiday... I felt really happy being able to just chill and talk and laugh... Reminded me of the good old days where u can chill out once a week to just bitch abt things and thrashtalk ppl that we know... ahhhh.... so wonderful!!
No amt of rain will dampen my mood...
There was nice food some drinks and good ppl to hang out with... certainly was a very good evening....

Back to last nite... so there i was rushing and rushing to complete my work so that can meet sexysect and the sister over in orchard road... All of us were looking excitedly for our durian fix... and what a shocked it was that the place that sell the durian puffs (its a small counter inside a foodcourt) closed down!!!
Major Bummer!!! I was so looking forward so stuff myself and maybe bring some back home but the bloody foodcourt was closed!! Search around the area to find but it wasnt relocated anywhere in the vicinity.. sigh... wanted to call the directory and none of us remember the name of the shop... TRAGIC!!
well we did whats best and head to centrepoint to look for another confectionery that sells durian puffs.... Looking for the the counter was another bitch... the shopping centre had newly renovated the place and had extension to the basement... we were looking high and low for it... after maybe abt half an hour plus growling stomach, found the counter...
However, when we reached the counter, i was not keen to eat much of the durian puffs... i guess wanting to eat at the other shop puffs have somewhat killed off my mood...
sigh... i hope can find the place soon...To sexysect sister (who is also now my friend), its yr duty to find the place and arrange the soonest time to indulge ourselves...
SOONEST OK!!

Lastly, this will be my last weekend at the old office.. shifting to a new one which is in the orchard road belt... will be much easier to make plans and meet my friends for movie/shopping or eating.. It will be also much faster to reach office since will take half an hour only as compared to 1 hour commuting now...
Now will have slighly more time to get ready for work... yay!!

However, im going to miss the market near the office.. so many good food to choose from....
Sigh....

A short blog...

2007-01-07T23:34:00.000-08:00

yes i have been a super massive lazy cow!!!
i have been neglecting the blog and i know some of the friends will wonder how come no new updates...
and also i have promised Ms sexysecretary and some others, that I will update as often and as much as i can... no promises ok but will try to be more diligent...

lets see, whats been going on with my life.... hmmm for starters my relationship with the KL person is over... very tragic the way things ended... i mean i didnt cheat or steal or being very rude or dont have the "cant be bothered" type of attitude... the worst thing is, the EX can actually ignore and avoid calls/emails/sms when things were not going on well... how and who can tolerate such behaviour... however, rather somewhat ashamed, im still rather hung up on him.... its not easy to let go or forget when there was no proper closure being done... a very good pal of mine, CJ, adv me to meet up and talk things over and it will be good if theres some kind of decision being made... At least to talk (if theres any), and just to get over it...
and just only last nite, i had a dream that we are still happy and lovey-dovey like always...
BIG FAT SIGH...

anyhoo, on to other things, ive now started to learn driving... should have started it when i passed the final theory test but NO... had to sit on my fat ass and just take it easy and now im panic-ing abit as the test will be early part of May 2007... and ive only had 2 lessons so far... guess i need to be more serious and book the lessons as often as i can....
so all u folks out there, pls pray that i will just need to take 1 test and will get my licence!!!

Happy New Year!!

2007-01-03T18:10:00.000-08:00

Wishing everyone Happy New Year!!!!
May all resolutions will come true!!

Feeling FAT!!!

2006-09-07T06:05:00.000-07:00

Lately Ive been feeling FAT.... Its very disheartening to see my ugly and nasty paunch every morning when i get ready to work... In fact its very disgusting.... God! how i wish one day i wake up with a tight washboard abs.... Wishful thinking!! But at least right now, I can flash to Mrs Z something round and bouncy belly... AND also compare who has the bigger stomach, esp after lunch...... hehehe....

I really really really really really tried my best to at least jog 3x a week... See 2 weeks ago, i did jog and use free weights... Then after the exercise, every muscle in the body ache, terribly.... Guess must did something (didnt do proper cool down?) wrong, no???
Naturally, after that I need to "rest"... So the resting period has become 2 weeks of non activity... How like that???? HOW??????
SIGH!!!!

I wish im more motivated to do something... Like today, after work i was raring to go and run but the bleeding train was delayed... and due to extra standing on the train, when i left, i got such a severe backache and was in pain.... and guess what, after i reach home im too lazy to do anything... instead here i am, infront of the PC, blogging about how i feel fat... Its so so so PATHETIC!!!

I hope this weekend i will get a certain inspiration or motivation to actually jog.... I gotta set a goal.... And one thats achievable.... My resolution was to lose at least 10kg by end of the year and time is running out!!

Oh and to Roy, hope u are feeling so much better and have a safe trip back to San Diego...
Im very happy to meet up with u last nite... U r one of my friends that i cherish a lot...
Take care and i really hope that you will email regularly....

Thinking and thinking...

2006-09-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

Lately i have been thinking a lot of my relationship... Now im not sure if i would like to continue or not...
Little things abt what been said and done is slowly eating at me....
Just wondering why suddenly I feel like ending the relationship... And at times I dont really care what is going to happen abt it too.....

Was wondering if my tolerance level has dipped??? Usually if there are little fights and arguments, I would not like to say much and would rather keep quiet...
Let the moment pass and if I can keep inside as much as possible then I will let the matter rest... But nowadays, certain words and actions have been flashing across my mind on most nights when im abt to fall asleep...

Oh and there are ocassions when I feel like ending the relationship, there and then!!!
Why is that so???

*SIGH*............

Long time no blog....

2006-08-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

Yes… it has been quite awhile since I last blog…. Quite a lot of things had happened… and I must admit that the Month of July have been splendid for me!!!!
First and foremost, COLDPLAY concert was so fantasticly amazing!!! I went to the concert with my dear good friend, J….
J and I have been friends for more than a decade and I really wanted him to come along with the concert… Anyhoo… the concert was a sell-out… I had a good almost a good time… The only setback for me to enjoy the concert was because of my office clothes… Being unable to jump up and down was such a downer!!! Very restrictive…
But besides that, I had a good time!! Chris Martin really was extremely good!! Had the crowd eating out of his hands!!!!
All I can say is that, if ever they play in Spore again, I def would go and see them perform!!!

Oh and one more thing that I need to blog… Its about my birthday… A surprise birthday party was thrown for me!!
Im still touched till now… Never in my life I had a surprise birthday… Thanks to sayang, Cheerio and Ms Yati….A good time hanging out with my friends and just chilling out at Ms Yati house... I will never forget Ms Yati hospitality for the rest of my life.... And Ms cheerio.... Its been wonderful to be able to hang out with you and also for being a good and wonderful friend to me...
I will forever remember that day….
Thanks thanks thanks….

Lastly, my sayang suggested that we have an informal engagement party to be held next year… Told me that Langkawi would be a nice place to have it… And best thing we can invite 5-7 ppl around for the occasion… I was taken aback, shocked!, that sayang wanted to have such event…. But im glad that sayang have the intentions…
However, I did tell sayang not to do anything in such a hurry… I rather confirmed that we are living together and then have such party to be held…

Sigh… well at least I know for sure that my relationship is going somewhere… I really don’t need to party as much as before and I def would rather spend weekends at home… I know someone is loving me so much and I want the relationship to work and if God willing, last forever….

Counting down to COLDPLAY!!!

2006-07-07T02:03:00.000-07:00

Finally its friday... Im so hoping that the weekend will pass by quickly as im superly excited to watch COLDPLAY!!!
I did watch them played the last time round when they were here... It was with another band... Cant remember who it was... Anyway, I had a good time!! The Band was fantastic, everyone had a good time singalong with the songs performed!!! whooo hoo!!!

Oh must add that on Wednesday i was feeling extremely depressed!! Suddenly had so many things in mind!! Abt work, family, finance, love, etc etc etc.... Couldnt really sleep, laying in bed, looking at the ceiling, feeling terribly lost!! Dont know what and how to handle the problems that I have... But i have to tell myself that things will be better, and also, will work out fine... Just have to work slightly harder.. At least then, financially, I will be stable and not worry too much abt my credit card bills and otherd debts...
.............(BIG FAT SIGH).........

Oh since tomoro is saturday, high chance will go back to work.. Need to fax letters to customer and then will meet Mrs Z and Mama Zaza for murtabak followed by durian desserts over at Orchard.... Fyi, this place that sells the durian puffs/rolls/sandwich?, is next to centrepoint... Over at the foodcourt, and the very first time i had the DURIAN PUFF..... GOOD GOD!! I was in heaven... Creamy and delicious with real durian bits!!!! Both me and Mrs Z wet our pants...HEAVENLY... Mama Zaza did as well when she first tried the durian puffs.... so thats something to look forward...
Murtabak, durian puffs with my dearest friends.... Now if only sayang will visit and then both of us can have a nice durian gorging session together....
YUMMY!!!!

See u tomoro ah Mrs Z and Mama Zaza!!

COLDPLAY!!!!

2006-06-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

I just bought a pair of tix to the COLDPLAY Concert!!!! So excited and im def looking forward to catch them live over at the Indoor Stadium... 2nd time im going to watch the band...

However, i have a small problem... who will i ask to come along to watch the concert with...
I have asked 3 of my friends abt this... So will see how... The person that I choose must love the band as much as i do!! But most importantly, both of us will be able to enjoy ourselves!!!!

So excited!!!

COLDPLAY!!! COLDPLAY!!!

Wedding Weekend.....

2006-06-05T23:04:00.000-07:00

Phew!! Finally its over!!
Its been really2 busy weekend for me... My dearest sister got married last Sunday and so was busy cleaning and preparing for the wedding....

Preparations started almost like a month... So many things needed to be done... Had to so some painting ard the house, get new furniture... Generally, the house needs to clean.. Super clean!!
Lucky thing, nothing major happened... Just that everyone was bz attending to relatives, both near and far, as well as friends too!!

Im very happy that my very close friends managed to make it for the wedding... At least i didnt feel too lonely with throughout during the weekend, altho, a call or sms from the sayang will help to make it less lonely... But alas, no such thing was received!!
I wont dwell too much on it...

Anyhoo, i am very happy that this time round, i did make an effort to chat with most of my cousins and aunties... Made some plans to meet for coffee or movie with one of them... I remembered how both of us will go out together and she will take the bus with me and go ard town... Now she has 2 kids of her own... So fast her kids have grown up!!!
Or either that im going old.. hehehe..

Congrats to my sister Abby!!!

2006-06-02T00:51:00.000-07:00

This weekend my 2nd youngest sister will be walking down the aisle....
Im so happy for her that she has found someone that will take care of her... And i do hope it will be through good and bad times....

Anyhoo, wedding preparations are on the way... I can expect some guests to come tonite and tomoro nite as well.... Going to be busy, busy, busy.... But hey, its ok, its my sister anyway!!!!

So to my dearest lovely sister, Congratulations!!!!
May you have plenty of love and happiness forever!!!

Heart Ache...

2006-05-04T03:31:00.000-07:00

Going to vote this weekend... quite exciting time... and this time round most of my family members will need to cast their votes as well (how very SURVIVOR - the reality show)....

I plan to go early in the morning this saturday... after which i will be able to take the coach and go to KL.... So many things in my head now concerning my relationship...But the most important thing at the moment for me is to salvage and mend this before its too late....

As you dear readers know, i am on a cooling off period with the sayang at the moment.... I mean naturally, you wont sms or call that often as you would normally. So i did my best to take it easy and try to see if i myself can go on without listening and talking to sayang... However, things got worse 2 weekends ago...
I made plans to go out clubbing with 2 good friends but the nite was not 'happening' for me...
Sayang called asking how am i and all that and will definitely ask, where are you now, question... So i told abt the plans.... The reply from sayang wasnt music to my ears... Said to me that going to JB with an old friend....Old friend or old flame??? I got really shocked and upset!! I mean u wanted the cooling off period, still angry at me, so why reply with such a remark...

Sigh so the nite was spent sms-ing each other and i got really pissed.. Somehow i believed that hes just saying that to spite me.... Come on man... Its very childish, right?!
And after many smses sent, during the weekend, sayang stop to reply to my sms/email/calls....
How can i possibly be in a happy jolly mood... Cooling off period doesnt mean you have to ignore me... Have some respect for me and at least tell me something than just shutting me off completely....

I just dont understand... This coming from someone who told me i need to grow up and be responsible.... Funny eh!!
And today i read sayang blog... The post script makes me angry/hurt/laugh at the same time..
Please do not sent stupid and absurd text messages to my phone, PLEASE!!!

DOH!! Of course i would send sms to you asking funny questions when u dont have the decency to reply any of my sms/email/calls.... Of course i will presume the worse... Maybe u dont want to continue the relationship any longer??? How do i know??? At times i really feel like waving the white flag.... Its to taxing and tiring... However, Mr J, a very good friend of mine, was telling me to talk things over and try my best to salvage it...

Hope things turn out right when we meet...

Tagged.... by Mrs Z....

2006-05-03T01:59:00.000-07:00

Yes i know that i have not been diligently updating my blog but its getting much harder to do so in the office... Its not an excuse but its just that ive been preoccupied with matters concering the affairs of my hear.....
Sigh.. When im in the right mood will update lah.. But as for now i was tagged by Mrs Z...
so here it goes!!!

Jobs I've had in my life:
1. Front office assistant
2. Clerical Officer (in HDB)
3. Retail Assistant (loved that job!! met so many ppl daily)
4. Sales Executive (In Telco Ind)

movies I could watch over and over again:
1. Pretty in Pink
2. Pretty Woman ( eh both starts with Pretty)
3. Star wars (the whole shebang!)
4. A Chinese Ghost Story (dont ask why but i think its a damn good movie!!)

places I've lived:
1. Singapore
2. Singapore
3. Singapore
4. Singapore (just like u Mrs Z... BORING!!)

TV shows I watch:
1. Friends (i dont mind watching reruns of it)
2. Charmed
3. E entertainment Channel
4. Cartoons!!

places I've been on vacation:
1. Sydney
2. Paris
3. London
4. San Francisco

websites I visit regularly:
1. Asiaone.com
2. Yahoo.com
3.theonion.com (for my weekly dose of laughter)
4. Abercrombie.com (to check out the latest stuffs)

of my favourite foods:
1. Anything that my mum cooks (totally yummy)
2. Fried noodles (esp Mee hoon goreng indian style with loads of Ketchup!!)
3. Muddy mud Pie
4. Any kind of cheesecakes!!!!!!

places I would rather be right now:
1. To be in my sayang arms (need a huge hug now!!)
2. Hanging out with my friends somewhere in orchard road
3. Sleeping at home
4. Or visit Ms DEE over in NYC... (sigh... just hope i can visit her this year)...

So there it goes the list...
Mrs Z hope u happy ah..

Cooling off period....

2006-04-20T20:41:00.000-07:00

Im writing today asking myself abt what the meaning of "cooling off period"…..
I roughly have the idea that when someone u love ask for a cooling off period it will naturally means that he or she is taking a break from the relationship… And basically, both me and sayang needed a much cooling off period from each other…. Maybe both of us need the break… But of course, there were reason for it… U don’t have a cooling off period for fun do u??

Sigh.. This is what had happened coupla weeks ago…

Some 2 or 3 weeks ago, I didn’t go to kl and made plans to go out with my friends to hang out and go dancing… Sayang do not like the idea of me going out with my friends clubbing... Most likely sayang feel that I will go astray and pick up someone else when im drunk and also, do stupid things that I will regret later.. I mean I can understand the concern but for crying out loud, im not a young teenager that wants to have sex all the time…
I truly love and miss my sayang every moment.. And im very confident of myself that I will not engage in anything that will ruin the relationship that I have… Im not stupid to throw away the one true happiness that I have…

Sigh…

Anyway, so sayang thinks im always up to some mischief during the weekends… and if im in SG, def will call and check up on me… asking the usual questions like, where are u?? Who u with??? Are u out now???....
So what if im out and my friends hanging out?? I have been trying to make him trust me but its not easy and up till now cant seem to trust me…. What am I going to do??? Ms Dee told me that if theres no trust, then the relationship is doom to fail… And sayang knew and understand that…
Anyway, I asked for a cooling off period… The last time we spoke, sayang got angry and start to scream and yell… I feel that hes verbally abusing me… Its not the first time and I def hope that the temper will change for the better… I don’t want to have a relationship with such a person…
The reason for the anger is becos I didn’t buy tix to kl during the next holiday period (May Day)… its not that I don’t want to go but I change the tix to a later date in month of May… and I paid quite an amount too… Plus I did sms and sayang replied to me that need time to think and since I already change the tix, so im just going to stick to the dates… Fine, so I did as told… No point arguing over the matter...

So pls don’t get angry and blow yr top at me… Im giving u the space and time for you to cool down….

I know I may not be the best and easy person to live or love but at least I try to keep cool and not explode and start to curse and shout…. If you are really very upset and cant control yr temper then talk to me when u have cooled off….

Its that too much to ask for????

Madonna sang to me just now...

2006-04-12T17:48:00.000-07:00

Your heart is not open
so I must go
The spell has been broken,
I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no
You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do ya wanna go higher?

Chorus:There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye
Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
You were my lesson I had to learnI was your fortress.........

Stupid Bus Company T&Cs!!!!

2006-04-12T00:39:00.000-07:00

I am writing to express my utter frustration at a certain tour/coach company....

Story goes like this, i had booked and paid for a return coach tix departing on the eve of the Good Friday holiday (Thurs nite) to KL but due to unforeseen circumstances, I need to change the dates a month later (will write abt that unforeseen circumstance soon, promise!)...

So Monday nite, after work i trotted down to Golden Mile where the bus company is... I had stayed late in the office trying to help a customer do some configuration work but i failed miserably (fyi, im a sales person and not a tech officer)... Dead tired and hungry i had to do the changes soonest as i assume, most bus company will have a time frame of at least 3 working days.... I was very confident that at most i need to pay a maximum of $10 or maybe nothing at all since i have a grace period of 3 days...

So walked up to the guy at the counter (name: Daniel) , who i bought the tix earlier from, and explained my needs.... Naturally, the guy jumped and quickly informed me that there will be no refund of the tix purchase and instead I need to buy for the new dates....

Madness!! its not like im going to cancel the tix but just need to change the dates, for god sake!! So i argued and argued but insist that im canceling the tix.. and the worse bit that do not make any sense, penalty for cancellation is base on tour packages bought!! WHAT THE HELL???

Hello.. i bought coach tix and not a tour package... U know the terms and conditions indicated that if i cancel my departure date, there will be a $300 fee... And i bought the tix for like $62 but if i change/cancel coach tix will be at $300, and need to give 1 month notice too!!
sigh... so in the end after i nearly screamed my head off, explaining to them that conditions is extremely ridiculous, the lady relented (by this time Daniel,poor chap,had to ask a senior staff for assistance) unwillingly, and told me that i need to pay additional $30 for amendments...
Its definitely fine with me cos im doing an amendment and not a CANCELLATION!!!

One thing is for sure i will def not buy any more tix from that company!!

Oh if u readers would like to know which company is this, its GR Travel

Blogger's Block...

2006-04-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

Wah!! It has been quite awhile since i update my blog... The only excuse that i can say is that i have blogger's block (or is it just plain lazy)???

Any Ms Cheerio have asked me to update my blog and so shall i... lets see what has happened...

Well the incamp training was done and completed.... Oh and before that sayang and myself helped to assist ms cheerio on the fashion show over at orchard road ( well i think i did more to help then sayang)... it was fun that day... Rained cats and dogs but thank heavens, the sky cleared and the fashion show was ready to rock!!
The girls looked so beautiful in the designs and everybody was in high spirit before,during and after the show.... And ms cheerio, i do hope that one day the designs will go regional and then the boutique can conquer the world!!!! and I will def assist u in whatever ways i can... PROMISE!!!

Ms Dee came to watch the show with JA... She cameback from her holiday in Penang.. She of course was the bridesmaid.. Looked so fabulous with her dress the aunt chosed... NOT!! JA, fyi, is the man in Ms Dee at the moment... Happily together nesting in nyc!! Very jealous as she has someone to look after her and cooked meals... So Ms Dee, Enjoy!! And do try to update yr blog as frequent as u can...

So after the fashion show, i had to go the incamp training.... oh my god!! it was a blast!! heheeh..
i was prepared for the worse but it turned out alright.... I guess having good friends, Mr Steward and Mr Nurse, helped alot... it keeps the mood lively even tho at times i wanted to scream out loud at the schedule, the waking up at ungodly hours and staying late at nite to do nite duties....But again, i must say that i had loads of fun and now im actually looking forward to nex year in camp.... Weird or what?!
oh and as usual, i failed my IPPT.... now im wondering how can an overweight person like me ever passed the test..... sigh.... lets see if theres any changes and who knows, i just might be motivated to lose weight and actually passed the friggin test... my problem is the bleeding chin up bar and running the 2.4km...
I do have a motivation to lose weight cos have plans to go phuket some time in june with sayang.... hmmm at least when im there i wont be shy walking ard the beach topless.... i think i will do something!! update in the blog if i managed to lose ANY weight...

On the love front... things are not as rosy... have many fights with the sayang and now we are having a cooling off period... was told that want to meet only in June... thats like 2months!! told sayang im unable to wait that long and compromised.. so meeting in kl during the vesak hols (12may).. so thats something to look forward too.... and i frigging hope sayangs feelings towards me will not wither or worse, during this period decides to break up!!! Then my life is completely over!!!!

How like that??? dont want to think too much abt the sayang situtation now..

ICT - IN CAMP TRAINING

2006-02-24T00:50:00.000-08:00

Damn!!
Its that time of the year where im going to be herded and packed to the jungles for in camp training... At this moment, dread and anxiety is consuming me.... I dont understand why,last year, i managed to survive with nothing serious or hilarious that happened... But what i gather from people i met during my RT (remedial training), we have to do some serious trench digging this time round... Looking forward to that... Not!!!
have been telling myself that whatever happens, must be positive... Its just 2 weeks and im sure that i will be able to book out on weekends.... And it will be good to meet up with my reservist mates to catch up on things that have been happening....

Anyhoo, the month of February has been FANTASTIC!!! First there was the super long holidays... CNY and then there was the wedding that I attend in KL.... Was such a blast meeting with friends who are working in NY and London... The best part of it was the journey to KL... Its been ages since i went to KL with someone and Ms Cheerio was wonderful as my travelling companion... But i must say that even tho we didnt chat much (drugged myself so that i can sleep), its been fun... So Ms Cheerio, thanks for the fun trip and tolerating my nonsense throughout the time we spent in KL....
When will do the holiday thingy again??

Long weekend ahead!!

2006-01-24T21:05:00.000-08:00

Finally its mid week and im seriously looking forward to the long weekend break....
As usual will be meeting sayang over in KL and since its Lunar New year weekend, all buses are full and was only able to book tix on saturday morning....
Fyi, the last time there was a long weekend there was a massive jam over at the checkpoint and i really really hope i wont be stuck in it... Otherwise a normal 5 hours journey will turn to 8 bleeding hours...

Anyway, this weekend must have a good long chat with sayang to confirm on the next level of our relationship... Lately theres so many arguments we have been dealing with... Must settle and talk abt what has happened... I know it wont be easy but at least i have to try to make things better for the future....

So everyone out there, hope u too will have a fantastic long weekend with yr loved ones!!

Lonely....

2006-01-06T00:22:00.000-08:00

I was on leave yesterday cos went to the hospital with my mum to follow up on her operation...
Everything is fine and the nurse recommended her to use a prosthetic breast with the under garment... Couldnt be believe that it cost close to $300 but i did buy for my mum.... I love her very much and i want her to be happy and not worry to much of looking and feeling different...

Anyhoo, yesterday i was missing my beloved tremendously... Was feeling super down and was wishing and hoping that i can move in together as fast as possible in KL... However, its not as easy as i anticipated... Must apply work permit or permanent residency but all this need money and worse, i dont have any to begin with...
*SIGH*....

Nevertheless i will send resumes and i do hope some company will employ me and i can get the work permit... The idea of living together excites me!!! I have never felt so strong for someone like this before...

Pray hard for me so that I can achieved my dreams and not be lonely here....

Of the Coming New Year....

2006-01-03T19:18:00.000-08:00

The new year has come and normally for me, this is the time where i planned to acheive certain things.

1st and foremost, im going to make sure i pass my driving licence... I had already taken the basic and final theory test and plan to take practical lessons... However, i am facing some problems with booking and planning the lessons... I have bleeding RT to go now every Tuesday/Thursdays and Sundays... So there goes 3 days of the week and then on most nites I m just plain lazy to do anything else... Esp on mondays... And guess i what, i actually have set the time to do learn after my reservist and THAT will end somewhere in mid march... Sigh...
so everyone, do pray that by 3rd week of march i will be learning and hopefully can pass the test by end of June or July... hehehe...

Anyway, im glad that I had to do RT... At least with the start of the new year im forced to do some exercise... so like yesterday, i had run 4km with the timing of 34mins... but it wasnt a run more like jogging with a bit of speed walking thrown in... So my goal by the end of Jan 06 is to lose ard 5-8kg... and if that happens, boy, it will def be a good deal to start the new year with... and most importantly, i need to maintain the exercise routine, tho hard as it is since im such a lazy cow!!!

Lastly my other goal is to save as much money as possible and im planning to work in KL...
i need something new to do as well a new place/environment... Ive been working for the same company for 8 long years and basically, its time for a friggin change....

Hope this year will be bountiful for me in terms of health wealth and happiness....

HELLO 2006!!!

2005-12-29T20:22:00.000-08:00

The year is coming to an end... How time flies without me realising it.. Where did it all go???
sigh...

Anyway, this year has been a good one to me... For the first time in my life i managed to save some money... Even tho not much but hey, its better something than nothing...
Saving the cash cos I intend to visit my darlingest friend, Ms DEE in US of A next year and i want my beloved to go together with me... Planning for the honeymoon, in a way i guess..

Well, tonite im going up to KL... Celebrating the new year with the beloved and GOD, pls pls, no traffic congestion over at the checkpoint... I couldnt bear to stuck in the bus for 8 hours like Ms Cheerio!!!
By the way, havent got any plans when in KL... Just take it easy cos on 01/01/2006 the beloved is going to have a kenduri*... The parents are coming over and i do hope that everything will go OK...

So will update once back from KL..

Happy New Year to Everyone!!!

*prayer feast??

Aftermath of Xmas

2005-12-28T21:27:00.000-08:00

Well the Christmas weekend has ended!! And i had almost a good time in KL with friends...
Why almost?? Thats becos by the time i arrived there i was already feeling under the weather..
The nose starts to run and throat feeling scatchy!!! sigh...
But seeing and having my sayang in my arms made it all better... ;-)...

Anyway, didnt do much in KL... Most evening it rains... Bummer!!! But we did manage to go dinner and walk around in Ikea as well, so thats not too bad, right??

Oh and by the time i left for KL, my nose gets worse and i start to cough... Its the one where u cough and can feel the phlegm coming out of yr throat.. hehehe.. And not only that, i start to wheeze as well... And next morning... the cough gets worse, the nose gets blocked and i feel like dying.. I did haul my ass to work but decided that I need to see the doctor... Got medical leave and then i left home.. To rest cos the medicine, once taken, makes u feel super duper drowsy... And most of the time i feel like im floating and in dazed!!!
Then the next day (on Wednesday) i was still feeling sickly and decided to visit the doctor to extend the MC for another day... Very glad that I can rest at home but didnt manage to nap until ard 4pm.... Woke up at ard 5.30pm and then laze ard the house and watch tv....

So later today, I have to do my RT thingy... But i will not do so since im still feeling sick and the doctor had written an excuse letter... YAY!!!
Honestly, i much rather do some exercises but u cant say no to doctors orders...
I just hope that I will leave home early after RT....

Xmas Plans.....

2005-12-21T18:52:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the 1st anniversary with my sayang..
How time flies... Without me knowing it I have been together for 1 year and I do hope that there will be many more to come in the future….

Anyway going to up this weekend with ms Cheerio and hubby, Ms Z and daughter… Me and Ms Z plus daughter will be taking the same bus while Ms cheerio and hubby another bus company… I guess we are going to have a race to see who reach KL faster…. Heh heh heh….
Im hoping to do something shopping this weekend... I need a new pair of work shoes and maybe some nice t-shirts/shirts as well... Seriously, i have not been shopping for myself... So this is the best time to do so!!

Apart from shopping, will go and watch King Kong this weekend... and most importantly, to stuff my face with food!!! KL is the best place to eat... Once I went to a dinner buffett at one of the hotel, and boy, the spread was simply amazing!!! So many different types of food!!! Chinese, Japanese, Western, Malay and on and on.... Desserts were unavailable too!!!
Sigh all this thinking of food makes me hungry!!!

Im def looking forward to this weekend very much… First time for me to have the chance to get out of the country to hang out with beloved and good friends… I hope nothing will spoil the weekend ahead…

Woo hoo!!

Season Greetings to everyone!!!

Excited one!!

2005-12-13T00:10:00.000-08:00

Its only Tuesday and i feel that time is passing rather slowly... At this moment, im answering the hotline and GOD, i am feeling so sleepy at the moment...

Anyway, last weekend i was up at KL and felt that it was a very short weekend spent with my sayang... I arrived in KL past midnite and had to leave KL at 7.30am cos I need to be back as early...
Normally, i will take the afternoon bus but due to my training (army thingy and since ive never passed my IPPT, had to go back on weekends to lose weight) i had no other choice... Sigh..

But all is good cause, i do need to lose some weight before Ms F wedding come next Feb... So theres something to look forward to and more reason to look buff!! hehehe...

Anyway, since Ive been invited to the wedding, im going to meet up with Ms Cheerio later (hope she wont be staying late) at the shop to make new outfit (well, more like a top and pants) for the wedding... So excited!!! Just to share, its going to linen, color off white with embroidery done at the back.. and since the theme is silver, so naturally the embroidery will be in that color....
Sayang, will then do some designs and then both can choose which will be best..

Excited one!!!

Karaoke session!!

2005-12-04T18:24:00.000-08:00

Dont u find that weekend is so short when u r having a good time.. I had a blast karaoke-ing on Friday nite... but before that i went shopping after work for a new pair of jeans!!!
Got the latest Levi's Engineered Jeans and very happy with the purchase... Cant wait to wear it this Friday and show sayang what i had bought...

The karaoke session was a blast... I love to sing (even tho very badly) and had the chance to sing for like almost 2 hours since it was me and only Ms Z at that time... then 2 of my other friends joined in but didnt stay for too long as both had other engagements to fulfill...
So after the singing session went back to Ms Z place and sleep...

Next morning, had to wake up early cos sayang had asked me to buy some Vit E over at a hospital... And both me and Ms Z were not sure of how to get there but thankfully, managed to get there before the Pharmacy closed... Phew!! Such a relief cos I def do not want sayang to be upset/disappointed if I didnt get the stuffs...

Then went back to Ms Z house to watch vcds and then took a nap.... ard 7pm then i left her house and she drove me back home...

So weekend was very relaxing cos when i reach home, i had something to eat and watched EPL and Liverpool won 3-0 and that made me more happier... After watching the game, tried to read to finish the book (Chronicles of Narnia) even tho was very sleepy.... And since im going to watch the movie this weekend, i am trying to finish the book ASAP and lets hope i can do so...

Hope this week time will fly and by Friday, of i go to KL again to see sayang...
YAY!!!

Of Being Stupid....

2005-11-30T21:40:00.000-08:00

Ok so the holidays are over.... Had a good time in Bangkok with the beloved...
Went shopping ard for house decorations and bought wood carving but sad thing, all 3 of the wood carvings are of different designs... Sayang was hoping that it would be a pair of the same design but alas, when we got home, all 3 are different... So now instead of displaying in the living room it will be in the masterbedroom...
We also bought 3 paintings and those will be displayed in the living room instead of the bedroom... I liked the color and texture of the painting and its a steal at RM$280....
Both of us were contented and left the weekend market to go elsewhere shopping....

Now why did i indicate the caption 'of being stupid'??? Was fcuking upset with sayang last nite... i just asked something while talking and he went ballistic and starting lashing at me!!!
What the fcuk??? And he goes on and on everytime i said/did something not to his liking and instantly, the word STUPID comes out of his fcuking loud mouth....
A good friend of mine said that i dont get any RESPECT from sayang... Why is there a need to get so angry and the need to shout/screaming and being vulgar with me... It shatters my confidence in the relationship and its gets me to think, if im the right one???
Last nite made me to wake up from my La-La land of everything nice and rosy... Why cant i get angry every now and then??? Sayang asked me why theres a need for me to merajuk? Hello???
What am i?? A Robot??? Expect me to be happy and laughing everytime ive been told to being STUPID!!! Fcuk!!!
As much as I love my sayang so much, there is a limit to my patience and frankly, its wearing thin... I thought that i got over it this morning when we were sms-ing each other just now but im definitely still stinging from last nite remarks....

So maybe I am STUPID... Have a mind like a 5 yr old but if u think, sayang, u cant take it anymore then lets split!!! I dont see the point of going on anymore when at the end of the day u make me feel like a child and not as yr equal....

FCUK!!!

Going to Bangkok!!!!

2005-11-24T16:52:00.000-08:00

Cannot wait for Friday!!! Going KL and then the following day will go to BKK...
woohoo!!! its been slightly more than a year since last i went...
Going to surprise with sayang with the RING i bought the other day... I do hope it fits and that sayang will like it...
so folks i will update more after the trip!!!

ciao amigos!!!

Working Saturday...

2005-11-19T13:50:00.000-08:00

Cant believe it but finally i managed to wake up early and go to work...
So happy that i managed to file most of the applications forms... Abt time too!!!
Its been quite a while since i actually came back on Saturday to work.. Very proud of myself!!!

Oh, guess what?? I volunteered to work on Sunday as well. Need the replacement off so that I can accompany me mum to the hospital for the following check up (05.12.05)...
That means i can bring forward my unused leave for next year (n0t much only 1 1/2 days)...
And next yr, I have 21 days of leave... WOOHOO!!!!

Ok better get going cos i need to hang dry my work shirts and go for a hair cut..

Ciao!!!

Yaaawwwwwnnnnn!!!!!!

2005-11-17T16:32:00.000-08:00

Its Friday morning and I dont feel like working at all today!!!
However with my sales being very slow this month, I do not have the luxury to email chat with anyone.... Must try harder....
But first..

Kopi... oh kopi... i need u...

Xmas Plans...

2005-11-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

Having panic attack!!! Made plans to go up KL during the long Xmas weekend...
Thought everything is going to be smooth but turned out that its very difficult to get hold of coach tix from KL to Spore...

Hope my sayang can get the tix otherwise, the plan needs to be cancelled!!!

Sob sob sob!!!

Operation successful....

2005-11-13T23:45:00.000-08:00

New work week has begun and im getting a tad nervous and a stress out thinking of my sales that’s not moving very2 well...
Worse bit is that I don’t even have the mood to call customers for f/up!!! I mean if u are interested in something and make the call to the hotline, naturally, you will callback to ask more questions or just faxed back the necc applications for me to do, right???
*sigh*…

Anyway, my mum had undergone a total mastectomy last Friday…Operation was around 4hours and when she came out of the operation, look really tired / weak and most of all, really old… I wanted to cry but force myself not to, as I don’t want her to start crying too!!
Doctor mentioned that everything is fine and she will need to follow up 3 weeks later….
Was advised by the doctor that she needs to do exercises to strengthen her right arm…. Fyi, mastectomy was done on the right side…. And being right handed make things harder for her to do....
I pray that she will recover soon and that no complications will arise after this!!!
Apart from the operation,
im so HAPPY that my sayang came over from KL to visit… The significant other didn’t sleep till boarded the bus till boarded the bus at 7.30am and all this is due to the birthday party held for one of the cousin in KL… I cant believe that after partying, most of them went out for supper!!! Worse can actually stayed and chit chat till the wee hours of the morning!!! Arent they going to be dead tired??? I mean I used to party all nite and will crawl back to bed at ard 8-9am but now, I think the most I can stay up is till 3am.. And if out partying, I need at least 2 full days to recover!!!
*sigh*…. This is what happens when u party WAAYYY to much earlier in life… U get burnt out!! Hehehe…
Lastly, I have to get off from my fat ass and start following up with my customers!!!
All the best to me…

Gone to the hospital....

2005-11-10T12:03:00.000-08:00

Leaving the office in an hours time...
Heading to the hospital to do the admission thingy for my mum's operation... And the most likely the operation will be done on Friday morning...
I hope my mum is not very nervous and will be strong to pull through the operation....

Just realised that this yr I had to go to the hospital twice... Sometime in July my sister and niece was warded for lung infection.. Now both are in pink of health, tho my niece will fall sick rather easily... Must stop her from drinking too many cold fizzy drinks!!

Will update soon...

Pray for my mum speedy recovery and health!!!

Couldnt ask for more....

2005-11-08T13:11:00.000-08:00

To the beloved:

Lying here with you • Listening to the rain • Smiling just to see the smile upon your face • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments • I'll remember all my life • I found all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Looking in your eyes • Seeing all I need • Everything you are is everything to me • These are the moments • I know heaven must exist • These are the moments I know all I need is this • I have all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more than this time together • I could not ask for more than this time with you • Every prayer has been answered • Every dream I have's come true • And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be • Here with you here with me • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments I'll remember all my life • I've got all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Chorus • I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more

*sigh*....

Still in holiday mood?!

2005-11-06T22:30:00.000-08:00

The long weekend has ended and now back to the daily grind…
I must say that is been a good weekend spent.. Went out visiting my uncle and aunty and my most precious grandmother too…
Everyone was happy seeing everyone but u know what, deep down inside I missed so much my beloved!!! All the laughter and banter cant make me forget abt my beloved..
Will talk abt the feelings I have later…

Now lets see, on the eve of Hari Raya itself, I went to work, left at 1pm, and then head back home to sleep… After breaking my fast, went out with Ms Y to Geylang to look for stuffs.. I need badly a pair of new capal* and maybe buy those little envelopes to put in money for giving out zakat* to my cousins or anyone still in school…
Me and Ms Y were joined by her cousin, Ms A, and off we drive to Geylang, looking for things to add for Hari Raya…
And when we reached Geylang,OMYGOD!! it was so crowded!!! Traffic was a killer and it took us abt 1 hour to find a parking lot!! But it was great fun even tho thousands of people were walking ard, just like us, looking and searching for things to buy… Be it some hari raya cakes or some new baju kurungs* as well…
It was crazy trying to move ard on the eve of Hari Raya… Crazy!!!
First it was really hot and stuffy with sweaty bodies rubbing against you.. Theres no way to escape the from being groped, tugged at, being pushed or shoved!! Such a crowd it was!!! But the atmosphere was amazing… Everyone was in high spirits, anticipating the festive joy with loved ones...
Anyway I did manage to get my capal and it cost me like $15… Cheap!! Walked and walked ard and bought 2 pieces of baju kurungs, one for my mum and one for my sister.. Sadly the size I got for my sister was too small.. Felt very bad that she didn’t have one suit from me cos I really wanted to buy her one.. So I will surprise her next week with a new baju for her… hehehe..

Now I want to write abt my sayang*….

Oh how much Ive been missing my sayang… Last week was a difficult week for me cos sayang flew back to hometown to celebrate Hari Raya with family and friends… I know for a fact that, if you have not been home for a very long time, you will be bz going to houses and catch up with everyone u have not seen… So naturally, I felt very neglected… Try to keep myself busy but when I have a few moments for myself, I cant help but to miss my sayang very badly…
Now I have this Micheal Bolton song stuck in my head…
*Tell me how am I sppsed to live without u*…

Anyhoo, had a little misunderstanding with my sayang and I thought its going to be over.. Its all becos of a stupid sms that I sent… The beloved thought I was sending horny text messages to someone else… sigh… I mean Im f**king in love!!! And I realised that I cant bear to lose my sayang…
Someone was telling my that im so desperate for the beloved.. And I asked myself why is that so??? And the only thing I say is that im so f**king in love!!! Is that a good answer or what?!
U know, if given the chance, I will leave everything that I have here and live with the beloved!! Whether the relationship works or not, that I don’t care, I just want to be with him…
PERIOD!!!!

That’s the week have been for me… What abt yours???

*capal - sort of like a slipper but made mostly of leather
*zakat - giving money
*baju kurung - traditional malay dress
*sayang - this refer to the person u are in love with

holidays holidays....

2005-10-30T21:23:00.000-08:00

Phew what a weekend i had... Went to KL to meet up with the beloved, who will be leaving for KK tomoro for the festive holidays and will only return on Sunday!! I will be pining and missing my beloved.. Just recalled that we never had Raya for ourselves before.. Must start to plan for next year then... hehehe..
But will talk abt that later.. Must write abt the weekend i had..

Lets see... it didnt start out very promising cos I had to wait for more than 45MINS for the beloved to fetch me from the bus terminal!!! Its was raining heavily and I was cold and tired from the travelling.. Reason was he was attending to a party , a *socialite* party, held for those who knows the royalty... Sigh..
i wonder whats going to be next.. Shall not dwell so much on itotherwise it just depresses me even more..

Anyhoo, we went furniture shopping and paid downpayment for a new sofa/couch!! Has got 5 huge cushions and its pretty comfortable i might say... Was also contemplating on buying a dining set but must throw/sell away the one with have at home at the moment..

Evening on Saturday nite was spent checking out a club/bar for one of the beloved's friends party.. I have not been drinking since July this yr and was so sure that I will not do so anymore but i FAILED.. However i will not despair so much.. Will take it easy and not be in a situation where alcohol are easily within reach...

So happy that this week is going to be a short week.. Looking forward to meet up with my relatives and friends over the holidays where at the same time, i can enjoy delicious food with great company thrown in.. But but, it will be much more complete if my sayang are together with my for the long holidays this week..
How like that???

Enjoy the holidays everyone!!!

To the hospital....

2005-10-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

Today im going to the hospital to confirm the appt date/time for my mum surgery.
A bit worried and scared for my mum. Its her first time going under the knife, so to say. Well I seriously hope that everything will be OK and she will recover fast. Really going to miss her when she's not in the house.

The most badly affected will be my youngest sister (turning 5 yrs next week). She still insists my mum to go to sleep with her at nite and would demand my mum to scratch gently her back. Very spoilt little brat but everyone adores her and she knows it!! Can literally get away with anything she wants!!
*sigh*......

Will be leaving office at 1pm today. Meeting my girlfriend to collect a VCD from her. My beloved wants it back and bring it back home. Im still wondering why does he needs it to bring back home. I mean, i didnt meet any of the gay friends there so why?? WHY???
Hmmmm... maybe i ought to ask when im over in KL this weekend...

bbbrrrrrrr......

2005-10-24T23:14:00.000-07:00

God!! its freezing in the office!!!
My hands gets numb and the air con duct is just above my head.. Think shld wear gloves one day. hehehe..
Must go and seal it otherwise fingers will drop off soon!!!

Didnt go out for lunch today. Was in the office busy writing cards to my friends to wish them Happy Holidays.. Eid Mubarak is round the corner so best time to say hi to most of them (tho i do see them almost everyday, hehehe).
So to all Muslim readers, Happy Eid Mubarak!!

Busy or Lazy???

2005-10-24T19:47:00.000-07:00

I know its been WAY too long since i updated my blog. And to be honest, i have been more lazy than anything else!! Just wasnt in the right frame of mind to blog abt anything. Be it love/work/social/family. However, i come to realise that I need to express myself more often and by that, the only way is to write something in my precious blog!!
hehehe...

Anyway, after my sister and niece was hospitalised (thank heavens nothing serious), my mum will need to go for an operation to be removed her right breast completely. She had known abt the lump for almost a year and did not mention to anyone in the family. Not until when my brothers had a massive fight did she break down and let us in on the news.
I got super upset when my sister called me and told the dreaded news.
At first I cannot believed it, i mean so far none of my closest relatives died of any cancer before!!
Utterly relieved that the doctor had confirmed that its non cancerous!! I hope the operation will be successful and no complications will occur. Pray hard that she will comeback home and celebrate Hari Raya together with all of us.

Mum I LOVE U.....

Will update happenings as frequently as i can now...
So will not use the excuse busy or lazy again.
heh heh...

Happy Birthday to me!!

2005-07-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

Saturday was my birthday... Didnt do much celebration... how could i celebrate when both my sister and niece are in the hospital... How can I???
Nevertheless, i did have dinner with Cheerio and husband with my significant other as well..
We didnt have anything lavish, just had some rice with dishes...
After which both me and the other half went to the room to sleep... No partying or clubbing or dancing the nite away...
Got a 100 bucks Levi's Voucher from Cheerio and Deee... Thanks guys!!! I could use a pair of new jeans... will shop together with my other half when here sometime next month... Its not easy to date someone who in another country but we're trying to make it work and I def want to stay/live together... I will touch on the other half soon in the blog (i promise)....

Anyhoo... birthday over and im getting older so much things to consider...
I somehow feel that no matter how old i get i still feel like im still only 24yrs old... Weird hah!!!
Just hope that my thinking its not at that age, STILL....

Well... Happy birthday to me!!

work...sick.. hospital...

2005-07-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh!!! sorry didnt update anything since last week... Ive been really busy...
where do i start???
lets see... work wise its been horrifying... i did only half of my sales target achieved.. i think i closed like, 11 sales out of 21... shit!! its going to be bad and i do hope my boss will not scream and asked me tonnes of questions... but its been hard for me (im not making up excuses)... i did answer the hotline, call my past leads and worse, handling the mailbox as well... i know some might think its bullshit, but its a nightmare!!!
i shall not think so much... August is coming soon and i VOW to hit twice as much sales and everything else!!!

now apart from work, my whole family have been sicked for the past week... and my poor niece and sister (both ard 5yrs old), were admitted to the hospital.... both were down with lung infection.... my niece was on the drip and my sister had to use the oxygen mask thingy to help her breathe easier... ive visited them often with my friend and darling (darling was in town for my birthday)... but thankfully both have recovered and are resting at home...

i too was sicked and was on medical leave but the main reason i took the leave was because i wanted to finish the latest Harry Potter book...
UNBELIEVABLE!!!
I could not believe Prof Dumbledore died... how in the world will Harry get help and advice to fight Lord Voldermot??? Will the school be closed for good??? Will Ron and Hermione declare their love to each other??? Will Malfoy die?? so many things happening and i cannot believe its going to end... Im eagerly anticipating for the final installment.. do hope Ms Rowling will complete the book within a year!!!
btw, i was feeling abit under the weather... had horrible coughing weekend and god, the phlegm!! so green and thick and how my throat hurts everytime i clear it... but its getting better...
i guess its high time i kick my smoking habit!!! waste of my life and money!!! I have been saying and talking abt it but nothing is happening...
I will start writing of how many sticks of ciggies i smoke a day... and hopefully one day u hear me finally kick the habit!!

SALE!!! SALE!!! I NEED MORE SALES!!!

2005-07-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

Yay!! finally end of the week... so looking forward to the weekend...
im going to kl to meet my darling... have not seen darling for more than a week..
missed darling... cant wait to hold and have my darling in my arms!!!!

hope tomoro there wont be any crap calls from customer and also, pls pls, let there more sales coming in... this month is a slow month and right now im at the bottom pile....
most of the colleagues have gotten 10 or more and i... i havent hit double digit...
stress!!!
hope the big boss wont have to ask questions... blah blah blah!!
guess tomoro have to callback my customers and push for sales!!!! wish me more sales!!!
arrggghhh......

my first time

2005-07-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

wey hey!!! finally got off my fat ass and start my very own blog... woo hoo!!!
cant think of anything to write at the moment... brain dead now but i promise to update as often as i can....
anyhoo.... welcome to my blog!!!